Post by CLAYBAYBAY on Aug 19, 2010 22:29:04 GMT -5
Before IMAGE officially started, I was upset and stressed over the Clay's Reality Academy Finale situation. It really upset me, and while everyone was happy the way the finale ended up... I Wasn't, because I wasn't a part of it and I felt hurt.
After seeing that there was a casting Call up for IMAGE, I decided no matter what animosity or how much i was still mad, i wanted to sign up and take advantage of the opportunity, so Ghostie allowed me to enter the competition!
I began to excel at Challenges, and I realized that I think I would have a shot at winning IMAGE!I won challenges and based on my OWN preformance, I have now made it all the way to the final 3.
I have learned multiple things being in IMAGE, and I feel like I've grown as well. My first thing I realized that I feel I will be better in the future, is not to take things so literally and not feel like it was a personal attack. When I signed on to my finale On Clay's Reality Academy, I was so upsettt and felt like it was a personal attack on me that JRox and Eric completed it without me. After playing IMAGE, and seeing that Ghostie had Jrox help HER out in the finale and he wasn't bias against me, I realized that he was legitamitely helping Ghostie out. There was no attempt at sabotage, or a personal attack, it was mainly in my head.. I was so upset almost to the point of quitting, but I didn't stop to think and didn't look at the entire picture and see that the things I felt I excelled on, I was rightfully complimented and the things I felt I did "decent" at , did not get as good of reviews.. I feel like now I will take a little bit more consideration into whats happening, instead of jumping to conclusions.
I realized that when something occurs that looks bad, take a minute to think, and realize not EVERYTHING is a personal attack!
Another big thing I think I grown from was a big one that I had for a longgggg timeeeeeeeeeeee. Whether I denied it or not, I always had a bit of a problem with......................................jealousy. Specifically when it came to making graphics for the site. I was just upset, because normally when it came to graphics, I was the only option...but then when Ghostie came along, another option was there AND she was great, so I kind of felt jealous that I wasn't the center of graphics in a way..being on image, it really set it in that Im on this game competing to win HER graphic game..competing to win a GRAPHIC from HER, and that its okay that someones a bit better than me! I can say im no longer ashamed to accept the fact that Ghostie has more training and is more skilled than I at graphics! Now I feel like after doing so, I can work on my graphics, do my own thing, let ghostie do her own thing, and I wont be upset..we can even work on things together now if we wanted.
Overall I just wanna take the things I learned, and continue to improve them so I improve my overall IMAGE, and show people im not the same old clay, and now that ive come to realize some issues ive had in the past, i look forward to putting them to use because actions speak louder than words.
that the one who deserves it wins